First, I will confess to not getting my run in today. It’s sad to finish a really good active week by skipping my run, but this was more a necessity than laziness as yesterday’s painting prep errands took longer than expected making there be more cleaning/painting prep for this morning. The main goal of the weekend was getting the baby room painted, which we did thanks to help from Erinn and Mike! But now, for a less running oriented post…
Each week in prenatal yoga we go around the room and do introductions: our name; how far along in pregnancy we are; and where we are giving birth. There’s also some sort of question we all answer to share with each other. Yesterday’s question was what is the best and worst thing about this pregnancy so far? The whole way around the room, I was pondering different options. I could think of lots of good things and lots of bad things, but deciding on the best and worst was really hard for me.
Some of the thoughts I had for the worst things were…
I am already ready to have my body back to myself. I know my intention to breastfeed means that pregnancy won’t be the end of sharing my body with this baby, and the thought of that extra chest encumbrance during marathon training worries me (currently struggling to find new sports bras). Even so, I’m still ready to have my body move like it is supposed to. I’m ready to have a glass of wine, and at least less of a concern about caffeine intake. I’m ready to go for a good long run without extra weight. I’m ready to sleep on my stomach and my back if I want to.
Another bad/annoying thing is people’s reactions to comments about changes in my body shape. Lately, every time I say anything about feeling big or some pregnancy change getting in the way of normal movement, I hear something along the lines of “you aren’t big yet” and “if you think you feel big now” and just “your’s still small.” All of which are annoying because what I am referring to has more to do with body awareness and the spatial orientation of my body to the things around me. Since I can’t see everything around me, my own sense of body and spatial orientation is much more important to me than to the average person. Years of running have focused that body awareness in additional ways. My coworkers, especially, like to react as though I’m complaining about aesthetics.
Some of the good things I thought about…
Well I’m now 6 months along which means about 2/3 of the way through!!! I enjoy (most of the time) feeling little squiggle baby move around in there, although its level of energy concerns me somewhat for when it’s in the real world. I think the most fun thing is actually Bennett’s reactions to everything…from feeling squiggle baby move to things we learn in our childbirth class to hearing the heart beat at each midwife appointment. All those things are great to experience myself, but somehow it’s more fun to see Bennett react to them. J
I've got to admit that though I obviously know breasts change during pregnancy/breast feeding, I hadn't considered the sports bra problem. Good luck with that! And people are well-meaning I guess, but the stories I've heard about what people say to pregnant women are just absurd. I hope you're able to keep your cool around people saying ridiculous things.
ReplyDeleteThanks :) I had problems with sports bras before getting pregnant so now it's just getting worse... I just shake my head a lot at what people say.
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