One week...

One week until MCM.  This time next week it will all be over…

I don’t really know what to feel right now.  Nervousness and excitement are vying for the predominant emotion at any given time.  I have thought about MCM all year.  I have trained for this marathon since June.  For months and months the marathon has had an impact on most aspects of my life.  Now all I can do is wait…  I’ve trained all I can; I’ve one all I can.  Now is the time to trust in my training and myself.

If I feel a little lost and unsure now, how am I going to feel without this goal to work towards.  After my half marathon I felt completely directionless and lost a lot of momentum.  I signed up for the Hot Chocolate 15K in December to make sure there was some sort of race all ready paid for to keep me motivated.  Hopefully that will help 

Now the problem comes.  Sitting here right now, I want to do this over again.  I want to run more marathons (although maybe I’ll take that back in a week J ), but running marathon’s, and wanting the ability to be competitive with myself, is difficult.  I have yet to convince Bennett that he wants to run a marathon, although I have made the big step in convincing him a half marathon is a fun idea.  I am so fortunate in my guide runners for MCM.  They are better, faster runners than I am, which allows me to be as competitive as I can be, without a guide holding me back.  There are so many complications in finding a well matched running guide that I still hold out hope to convince Bennett that he wants to run marathons with me.